Pieces of me

Writing for me is not an option. I love swinging on vines of imagination, where anything is possible. Where I can be deep, dark and edgy or casual light and breezy or even weird and quirky. Where my tears shine like rain drops, my smiles brighten the world. Where I can feel and think and want and need sans judgement. Where I can break. Where I can heal. Its a place within that frightens me even when it makes me feel the most safe. What you read is not my reality. I am my writing but my writing is not me.

The Gift & The Curse

Facing the fire, afraid of getting burnt. Overwhelmed by the desire. Consumed by the need that's taken over me. My mind's a hazy mess of thoughts of you. But I will forget it. My heart feels like a volcano overflowing with emotions. But I will ignore it. Feelings, so many feelings penetrating my soul. But I will fight it. I ache in the pit of my stomach, as all the possibilities my imagination conjures up drives me crazy. But I will stop it. Dangerous yet safe. Engulfed completely yet completely grounded. This is how it always is with us; doomed to live an eternity falling in love, but never having a happy ending. Different life times, different circumstances, always the same connection. From the day you came into my life, its always been you, you've always been the one. I can no longer deny it, but I will hide it. History repeats itself, but I don't have the power yet to change it. Maybe next lifetime.

New beginnings

Today is the beginning of a new chapter. I will look at the past with my eyes shut, and the memories I'll forever treasure. But I will look to the future with my eyes open. The lessons have been learnt. And even though my questions have resulted... in more questions, the one thing I know for sure; now is the time to start living.

The Lesson

I was yours but you were never really mine
My mind dreamt you up in a vibrant fantasy
So good that my soul rejoiced in the most sweetest of symphonies
Is it any wonder my heart soared to places beyond this reality?
Or that I ached for your caresses?
Longed for your kisses?
Wanted nothing more than to be a part of your world?
Forlorn I feared that I would never find you
Reluctantly I accepted the fact that maybe I had, but that I could never have you
And then you turned to me and whispered the words “I’m yours”

The Teaching

Take me to the places in the heights of your imagination.
Show me the depths of your soul.
Move me in the ways your mind coincides with mine.
Rouse me as your passion embraces the essence of my being.
Learn me from the top of my head to the tips of my toes.
Comfort me with the warmth of your spirit.
Calm me with your peaceful aura.
Protect me with your strength of character.
Seduce me with the allure of your charms.
Please me in the way you fill all my empty spaces.
Do this for me and I'm yours.